Friday, September 28, 2007

opinionated? moi?

I'm pretty awful at making my mind up, as I've been reminded this week.

If you want to find a community of people with opinions fiercely held and dizzyingly diverse, you can't do better than the Anglican Communion.

The media had a bit of a field day with this last week, thanks to an emotional and very significant meeting in America that could, allegedly, have split the global Anglican community asunder. (I won't go into the details - they're all over the internet if you're interested. Suffice to say the 'split' didn't happen.)

As one of the 'stay-at-home' staff in my office, I spent quite a bit of time following reports about the work of my colleagues out in the US.

In reading those reports day by day, I swung wildly from being proud and supportive of Rowan Williams' and others' desire to hold the communion together, to thinking unity isn't worth the price we're paying for it, to wondering what on earth 'unity' can mean in anything other than a local context anyway, to thinking Anglicanism is a big waste of time, to feeling ashamed at my own arrogance and lack of willingness to respect those who think differently to me, to.....ah, the list goes on.

Am I missing something in being incapable of deciding what I actually believe from all these arguments? In changing my mind (almost) every time I hear an empassioned statement from one side or another?

I cannot understand how so many people can feel so convinced that what they're thinking and feeling is definitely right, while what others think is definitely wrong. (All thinking they're on God's side, of course).

I could never be a politician. My epitaph would be: 'she tried out so many ideas: she must have had the right one at some point or other'.

Thursday, September 13, 2007


Amidst all the meetings/listening to annoying people hold forth about pointless stuff/lack of resources/paranoia that I might be part of a doomed organisation, there are times when I like working in a 'lay' (aaarghhhhhh!) capacity for the church.

The best things about working for the Lambeth Conference are the numerous encounters and relationships that don't revolve around misguided priorities, cynicism or the desire for control. Also nice are the occasional but distinct impressions I get that I matter, even as a tiny cog in a big wheel, and regardless of what everyone else thinks I and the wheel are up to.

Today I had a chuckle of glee to see that a web page I helped create is being discussed in some lighthearted, sensible and (indirectly) encouraging forums. Really, the Anglican Communion doesn't always need to be a matter of 'life and death'.....................

See this on The Lambeth Conference Marketplace and the related links/discussion.

Hurrah! A little bit of light is all you need.